Everyone has something they're afraid of in life. We can lie to ourselves and say no. But admitting it is the first step to conquering our fears. Whether it's getting older, the dark or even success. I'm deathly afraid of snakes (even though I adore them in my fiction stories). I'm afraid of anything that crawls on it belly, that includes worms. They seriously gross me out to no end. I'm afraid if not being a good wife or a good mother. And most of all I'm scared of showing others the real me because of fear of rejection. Even though I might tell myself I shouldn't care what others think. I'm human, and I have many faults. I feel other see my flaws rather than what I'm great at doing. I'm sure there are others like me who try to overcome their fears one step at a time. Becoming an author was the first step of me showing a part of who I am, by putting my work out there for others to read and judge whether they like it or not. And so far, I've been welcomed with open arms relatively well. There are times I think I need to show more myself and there times I think I haven't shown enough.
Since becoming an author/writer; I've learned a lot about myself. Personally and professionally. I've learned not to be easily offended if a reader leaves a negative review. Does it hurt that someone didn't like what I wrote? Hell yeah, it does. But I have to push the negative away and concentrate on the positive. I'm so afraid, and I'm sure I many Authors (newer and experienced) were once in my position at one point where they had no idea about the world are about to enter. Just like fiction sometimes reality can be a slap in the face. You're left sometimes wondering if you did the right thing or if it was worth it to put your work out there for everyone to see and judge. And then at times, you get a reader that leaves you with a review which puts a smile on your face with their positive review outweighing the negatives, and you answer the question of whether its worth it. There are people in my life that I envy. They can rise above their fears and do things I would be afraid to try or think about doing.
I've decided to step out and do something that I would be afraid to do. I will be attending my first GRL this October! I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I can't wait to meet all the authors whose books I've read over and over for the past few years. And I cannot wait to learn from them. My only worry is that I will end up being that one annoying fan that they run from when they see coming (LOL).
Good news, I finished the first draft of Jordan's Pryde, and I'm closer to finish book three of My One-Night series. I've scheduled May as the release date for Jordan's Pryde, and it's still unconfirmed when the release date for Book three will be out. I'm still working on a few other novels as well, so I'm kind of busy for the remainder of the year planning out plots after plot. Also, if you've noticed that I haven't posted more chapters to, Affairs of the Heart. That's because it will be tied to the Pryde Pack series. It will have its own series, but they will be related. I will not be sending out a newsletter this month. But look for one next month. Until next time.
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